I always thought that softball br would get me through everything, but what does br it mean when softball becomes the source of your problems? br The thing that used to get you through everything, now br becomes the source of most of my problems. br Is there anything that I can do to stop this madness? br The worst day in my life was probably today. br I seriously think that our coach doesn't want us to win any br games and never wanted to coach in the first place. br Well usually when I have the worst day in my life softball br always brightens up my day, well now as every pitch br goes by and as the screams die down, I realized I fucked up. br Three balls and two stirkes, why swing? br Well I should've and realize there went the game, never have I br dissapointed my team and I wasn't about to start now. br The screams turn to tears and the smiles turn to frowns and br then the tears turn to boos and then the frowns turn to angry faces. br Never again would I be able to face my team again, br let alone my school. An embrassment I have become to the br entire county. Never again will I be the same.