The pain of having my heart ripped out of my chest didn’t affect me any more br It was deeper than that. br I couldn’t out run it. br And it seemed to catch me back up at every turn. br The pain didn’t hurt my emotions. br It just ate them instead. br I sat there mindless. br Starring, hoping, and wishing the answer would find me but it never did. br It left me. br Just like everything else I had ever wanted br Ever needed. br It deserted me at the first sign of trouble. br I couldn’t have anything. br Nothing ever stayed by my side. br Was I cursed, or just that bad to be with, br But I couldn't be, br So many before him had loved me. br Not for what I am, br But for the soul deep within me, br This seemed to shine through, br Even when i go into this a time of, br Grave peril and despair. br I could not be beaten, br And shall not. br I would uses every last breath to find, br A lover as true as the man, br In my dreams.