If I faltered... br letting all that I hear, br fear, hold dear, br crash before me br before I realize br I could've saved it all... br br If I altered... br all the could've beens, br should've beens, and when's br feigning innocence br before I realized br this was my biggest downfall... br br If I'd catered... br to all my whims, br what I'd win, just to lie again, br manipulated it all for me br and not realize br I've backed myself up against the wall... br br It never mattered... br because what I've learned, br not earned aside all the bridges I burned br in the process, br nothing I've ever done br got me what I idealized... br br Your love, before and still, was never mine at all.