I thought I could stay away br But I just couldn't bare it anymore br It was calling my name so I had to br I know I gave in br br But I can't be strong br I never was and never will be br I knew it this strength wouldn't last br br I'm weak as weak can be br I saw the knife one to many times br I tried to hold myself back br But I couldn't br br And it felt good to see marks on me once again br To feel the pain br To feel alive br But now I want more and more its my addiction br br I tried to kill it but it wouldn't die br It had me trapped and I couldn't get out br Suicide is no longer on my wish list br But I still feel alone br br I still have this pain it lingers me br I wish I didn't have it br And I wish pain didn't exist br But it does and it hit me br br I thought I could be happy br But I should know better than that br Cause pain follows me everywhere I go br And cutting is my addiction br br I admit it now I want to do it more and more br Just to see the scars to feel alive br Sometimes addictions come and go br And I thought this one was gone br br But it came back at my front door br And now its back to stay br Cutting is mine for always br Its an addiction and its hard to breakbr br ESPN CHICKbr br