I must confess: br once I turned fifty, br I began talking to br television newscasters br while watching TV. br br br They neither hear me, br nor answer me. br Those things will come br at ages sixty and seventy. br br br Sunday mornings at ten, br Carole McNeill co-hosts br CBC's 'Sun Day'. br br br The instant she appears, I'm seventeen again. br I would never describe her br as beautiful or sexy, or even pretty, br though all of these, and more, br most certainly apply. br br br Winsome, alluring, gorgeous... br these suddenly become pejoratives br in her presence. br br br Am I the victim of animal lust? br Possibly. Quite possibly. br br br Though my predominant fantasy br is that we embrace so tightly br on Toronto's Front Street West br that we slowly and deliciously br become invisible.