This is what i have become br can not will not try to be accepted br all i do is considered wrong br NUMB br so complex in my ways. Never wanted to mix & be understood. br I don't understand me br with that in mind. Most just choose to let me be br something is out there just waiting for me to find itthem br not at all good in this realm. somewhere I will reign br inside I am a goddess. outside I am the poster child for pure hate & utter disgust br NUMB br sickened to my inner core. this strength i have will be forever. no one can take it, it belongs to me br surviving on air, water & hate br NUMB br f**ingwith me is like unlocking Hell's Gates br I do not care. Given a Cancer that can't even take me down. I will keep growing. not to be taken down by this world of fools br seek & destroy was always the way br but br now I am on a quest to find out exactly who I am br starvation & cutting have always been my way. i offer no apologies & expect no forgiveness. I really don't care br Given just one sorry ass chance at a life on earth. I am so very determined to lose 5 more pounds br Numb br that's me. It is what it is & i am what I am br a humanistic journey...