Out in the middle of the sea br floating amidst the waves of hopelessness br Like a small object floating through the barrenness of space br until eternity has eaten my very self br I feel the emptiness br br Not knowing whether it will be long now br if the inevitability of me has proved complete br Anxious at the thought of fulfillment br wondering how and when br it will end br br Losing all my strength br as the waves pound my beaten body br Water pouring over me br as if to smother my cries for salvage br when there is none br br I gasp, cough the brackish liquid br stinging my swollen eyes br Up, down, turning end for end br but feeling a sense of calm br a sense of peace, a sense of relief br br Then I realize it's only in my head br I take a breath br In, out, in, out, in, out br opening my eyes and seeing plainly br my future, my only hope br my last breath...