My fears are growing - as I know br it would - you are on a trip - you br who know exactly how life should br go - while I am making it up as I br go - and tonight I don't know what br should be my guiding light br br I have decided to visit family - persona br non grata - this weekend - while you br are away - but whatever I decide - the br anxiety won't go away - whether I go br or stay doesn't matter - the fear won't br go away br br And acting against your principles br are causing such havoc in my mind br so all could find to say was - I wish br I could close my eyes and drift off br into eternity...