The power of weight br crushing down on me. br br An uphill struggle br of br mind and body, br in unison behavior. br br Breathless endeavors br and a fire inside, br never quieted br yet disquieting. br br br Like a locomotive br on uphill auto pilot. br cannot rest, br cannot stop, br restless moments are these. br br Here, br at home, br endorphins pumping br rage let, br anger driven, br br a steady berating br of bereavement. br br Wrenching pain br as body tears. br br the pain br of desire, br regression, br and the toxins of nightly br excess. br br Power punching, br moment grasping, br movement raging, br br This, br the only outlet br for a caged soul. br br Every Night br tortured body br lack of sleep br alcoholic boredom. br br Every day br another fight, br A maze br round a row br and a row br in a maze. br br A restless mind br and a broken gaze. br Elucidating an oxymoron br of a boy in a mans body. br br Yet, br always, br br again br br A br Steady berating br of bereavement.