1 br br Dear, br I leave my heart br with you: br a heart bleeding, br live in vein of pain and br lone in silence! br br And I know, br for you, only br two ways left with! br Me, happy br to accept br any of them… br br Either you can br keep it living br on and on and on, br or br kill it br with mercy! br br If kept in your heart, br I will resurrect! br Glitter like br a carefully cut diamond: br with million faces, br light entrapped! br br And if thrown away, br will burn like br Sun in gutter... br Shall fly up- br wings burnt br without any destination! br br Just tell me, br when is the judgment day? br Optimistic my soul, br pessimistic my heart! br Thoughts, like unbridled horses, br torment a torn heart! br br 11 br br Dear, br Pour into my heart br agonies of yours, br hidden tragedies... br Let me gamble with it br and lose heavily! br br Dear, br may be I am nobody, br but still br I pray for you: br let happiness be br happy with you... br br br br Dedicated to: Perumpadavam Sreedharan, who wrote ‘Oru Sankeertanam Pole’: a novel based on those twenty-six days of Dostoyevsky’s life (While he was writing The Gambler.