learning to trust myself: br each breath I take is a reflex br but each word that was said before was an act br and I need to learn control. br br I am thankful the heart is automatic: br manual would be unbearable, yet br delusions of freedom obscure br and I wonder if my mechanical system br requires a mechanic br br I need to trust myself br and move less gracefully: br life is not a race to the finish line, br we're not boats in the water in currents or flows. br br life is a physical and mental experience: br remembering and feeling and forgetting- br striving for that heavy 'something' br learning to trust one's self: br being is easy, br being who you want to be - is life.