I remember you br looking almost br br Audrey Hepburnish. br br My big sister br & oh...that smile! br br Touching my world br with the wonder of her br br love. br br We are Christmasing br the place br br living in the candle's br glow br br love br nothing but love br br in almost slow motion. br br The holly bites br your little finger. br br I suck br the dropp of blood br br that grows br & grows br br until it is br kissed better. br br You laugh: br 'Ah...my little saviour! ' br br sighed with an almost br mock Victorian swoon. br br Tiny curls br cling br br to the nape of her br neck br br like the tinest br of tiny seahorses. br br We swimn br in the sea br br of our laughter. br br The next Christmas br you were dead br br lost to this br world br br leaving me br alone br br to mourn br you. br br I...unable to br save you. br br Now...all these years br later br br (years you never knew) br br the holly br bites my little finger br br & I suck it br quickly br br tasting through br my tears br br the sweet tang br of your blood br br so alive br in my mouth.