I am running all the time br but I'm running down hill; br br I am thinking all the time br but clear thinking is foggy to me most times. br br I do things sometimes and can't remember what. br br I do things sometimes and can't remember why. br br I have days I just want not to see no one; br just want to hide. br br I think certain days br others are looking at me. br br I think certain days br others are better than me. br br I don't want to go into certain things in detail- br the detail will hurt, br need to keep it general and light, br not get too heavy in my mind. br br Don't want to be like others because I can't. br br Don't want to adjust br because it will br make me crazy. br br I prefer people think I am dull and lazy br rather than I've tried and failed. br br Don't want any one to get to know me too well; br I might be judged. br br I have a secret side of me no one knows br that is superior over others. br br I run away from feeling down br and tried being happy- br didn't like it; br it didn't work out too well. br br What is wrong with me? br br I was born in the wrong century br I should be a pirate br and not polite br or effete. br br And another thing br I really like being around people br but I don't really like them to talk to me.