What's really going on. br TV. for hours - THERE GONE! br Homework maybe and radio on. br Let me fill this pot bowl. br Stereo loud - rock song on. br Beer, tobacco - night stand. br Strobe light with color on. br My life is getting funny. br Now all the house lights on. br The couch - my favorite pillow. br What is happening to me? br Crazy thoughts that just won't flee. br Into the bathroom - head down. br Tears running over the deep frown. br Into the mirror I look. br A JUNKY WHORE - PLUS A CROOK. br The blood is dripping now. br They don't love me - another down. br On the floor with one knee. br Dead I am in this red sea.