I couldn't figure out, just what I had br why always around the Holidays br I would feel so sad! br br My health seemed ok br well as good as it could. br But I just couldn't figure out br why I wasn't, feeling so good! br br No real money issues br not a problem at home. br But this miserable feeling br wouldn't seem to leave me alone! br br I tried all I could, to shake it all off br but it kept going deeper br my moods, were becoming my cross! br br Why is it I wondered? br That I always get, to feeling this way? br Around when it comes br to these, Christmas Holidays? br br Could it be that I long? br for what I once use too have? br With all the children and relatives br and my, Dear Mom and Dad? br br It's not the same, as it once use to be br these Holidays are different br Well, they're different for me! br br It's not the same, this emailing, ya know? br I sometimes need a hug and a kiss br from the family, I know! br br Maybe next year? br I'll have the money to visit, I'll just wait and see.