I've changed a little here and there. br There are less people I do scare. br br My mom would find me on the floor br with ripped up clothes I know I tore. br br While reckless thoughts went though my head. br I implemented them, no bed... br br ...did I go to, I stayed up late br to have mania, seal my fate... br br ...of crazy motions, choices too br I was so wrong my whistle blew. br br And those that saw were so aware br that I was sick. The things I dare... br br ...to do were massive, luck was mine br because I had relations, kind... br br ...and not so gentle when they took br me out to pasture, world they shook... br br ...was mine. I needed lots of care br to bring me back to life. This tare... br br ...on my shirt reminds me of that. br The day I changed. The day I sat... br br ...and thought I about what I must loose. br The mania I could not choose.