Where novelties are few and far between br I exile myself br Say my good-byes to the sun br Stomach filled with butterflies br A spasm of panic br Met with intense familiarity br br Always in the dark br I feel caged in br A topic of gossip br Unfulfilled expectations br Pushed to the brink br Always dancing on edge br A curiosity br An unaccepted outsider br br Never in harmony br Yet a familiar melody br No reason to be self-conscious br I grow more confident br Let the chips fall where they may br I can do this br br Difficult to read the faces br Trying to communicate something crucial br Maintaining what dignity I can br I start treading water br Instead of drowning in it br I can do this br br A beautiful challenge br Catches and holds my attention br 'You are worth it.