He presses his hand br on my breast br and increases the pressure br exploring br moving slowing br rotating his finger tips br to that adjacency br where index finger br takes a turn br on my gentle breast rise br and probes br the gentle probe br which mixes br exigency, br and anxiety. br br 'Do you feel a lump I said' br 'No nothing yet' he says. br br He strokes with his finger tip br across the mounting rise br centering on the nipple tip br pressing down br breast deep br centering with br smooth br rollings br and I say br 'Do you feel anything' br 'Nothing yet' br br Beneath both br he presses br slowly up br till br there he says he feels I small bumps br which I say are glands br not growths. br br Every week he feels my breasts br to see if lumpy lumps br have appeared. br We both share br this tense time br mixed br with intimacy.