HOW did it ever get this bad? HOW did I let it? br I just wanted to have a little fun, but it HOOKED me. br That first CLOUD i blew out had my soul trapped in the smoke br Now my LIFE is all about the 'next HIT.' br How do I get it? Where do I get it? Will it be good? Will it last? br These are all QUESTIONS that constantly RUN through my head. br I've FORGOTTEN about the beautiful things in LIFE like br Watching the sunset, br Enjoying a good man BASHING with my mom or best friend, br Or the way a CHILDS laughter warms my HEART. br I can no longer SLEEP until I have been up so long that it is br Physically IMPOSSIBLE to keep my EYES open br I FEEL nothing anymore br NO PAIN br NO SADNESS br NO HUNGER br NO JOY br NOTHING br I realize the EFFECTS my addiction has on myself and those who CARE for me br And yet i STILL feel nothing br But WHY br WHY cant i feel br This isn't ME at all br This ISN'T who I am br I am a loving, careing, GIVING person br Who would take a BULLET for just about any one I know br But this person from in the GLASS that has taken over my body and soul br Would be to busy with the QUESTIONS br To even realize the gun or here the SCREAMS br I BLAME nobody but myself for my PROBLEM br That is WHY I call it br MY ADDICTION br This is my life and my SOUL br I NEED to find it br I will FIND it br But WHEN br How long will it take to BREAK through the SMOKE filled glass br I will WONT I? br CAN I? br br WORDS FROM ANOTHER.... br I destroy homes.. I tear families apart.. Take your children.. br And that's just the start... br I'll ravish your body.. I'll control your mind.. I'll own you completely... br Your soul will be mine br I have many names.. But there's one you know best.. I'm sure you've heard of me.. br My name is Crystal Meth..