running out of ways to deal, br when all i have is pain, br nagative thoughts comes to my mind, br none which are agreeable, br just let me be selfish, br i'm sick of this, br who wants a life filled with pain, br my family just can't understand, br how unhappy i am, br because they want me to stay, br but, can't understand what i go through, br just to seem fine in front of the niece and nephews, br that's why i'm planning carefully, br not to leave many broken hearts, br when i leave this life, br but i guess there is really no right way, br to say good-bye to the people you care about..