I dropped off my heart br Like a kid at daycare on a warm sunny day br And while the children laugh and play outside br I sit alone wondering when mine will come home br But my heart will never be returned br An existential death that has come over me br For in my paradoxal constant of sinful reminders br Tells me my fate, and it is worse than death br Fated to love, and be shattered at best br With blood just to waste, drowning in it, my regrets br Such a capricious body I used to possess br Until I found the one that would ease all of my pain br And the minute that she hung me out to dry br Time to hang myself, but it can’t be that simple br Gutted grand juries sing verdicts in my mind br Of what punishment shall be thrown on the hopeless br All the pain I deserve, and never to stop loving her br Never to be myself again br She is me and I am her, we were always the same br To blind myself, and deafening horrors br Make feelings escape and make crying instinct br Caught in the net that I sewed for myself br Hung from the limb that I sat on to think br Belief that if I stare long enough into the sky br I can fly with the angels br But they will force me to be alive br My own sweetest angel br Holds a knife to my throat, a gun to my head br Forever I will live in this pain.