I feel im of importance br but at the same time im not br I feel like no one cares of my existance br to me it seems true br No one really listens to what i say br if they do it doesnt seem that way br If i were gone would anyone care? ? br nevermind...dont answer that br just pretend im not there br Im somwehat bored br easily annoyed in life br i think i just realized that im mostly depressed br i act like im happy...? ? br but that kinda adds to my stress br I find myslef happiest when im alone.... br or talking to people who i think care... br when im watching tv? ? ....not really... br listening to music? ? ...most dearly.... br im not sure but i think i sorta strongly dislike my life? ? br I tend to isolate myself from the ones i love br the ones i live with...they dont seem to notice br thats kinda nice? ? br I keep being told 'i love you' br but i find that hard to believe br im not sure if when its said its meant br i know that when i say it br its true and its not pretend br I try not to let br my anger and sadness get the best of me br but ive held them in so long br that lately theyre almost controling me br Keeping the ones close to my heart br is kinda hard to do br i feel as if they may try to harm it br so theres an invisible barrier br if that barrier is destroyed i dont know what id do br im already on the brink of losing br whats left of my mind br .......................................................................................................................... br so yeah.....i just felt the need to share this......(srry its so long) .....