A BAD work report, sick to the soul, ready br to die and then you belatedly admit you’ve been br experimenting with food despite my allergies, br adding a new sauce to all meat dishes br br You tried Balsamic vinegar* and Worcestershire br sauce* before, earlier it was garlic and curry br and oil, now you only stop when I obviously fall br ill or go blind, this time I didn’t know br br I suffered the pain in silence, THREE doctors br visits in a row, dying of discomfort but no br hormone problems thankfully, just chronic sinus, br I was the fool, could not do my work br br A bad soldier at the office, let everyone down, br I had NO integrity, was disloyal, didn’t complete br anything because this allergy agonised to the br point of taking painkillers 247 br br If you want to destroy me, give me poison to br end my life, do not continually humiliate me like br this – even if I was a murderer in a former life br even if it is my Karma to suffer br br Do not poison my food lightly so I linger on, do br it massively, kill me efficiently, speed it up, br I accept that I am as guilty as the worst criminal br and sinner that has ever been br br So kill me QUICKLY. The conclusion is I was born br to be humiliated and I am thoroughly ashamed of br myself, I am an abject, useless human being, br too sick to go on with life….