I shouldn't have been in this world you created, br in this place of decadence and annihilation... br Is that all you got god? br I`ve been through alot worse. br Death. br Life. br Suicide. br I can take it. br I`ve been on the side of a road br looking headfirst into br a mack truck. br Roaring down the highway. br I thought id kiss the front bumper. br But i let it pass anyway. br This day a man stopped br to give me a ride, he was a preacher, no lie. br I couldn't talk to him, but to say thanks for the ride. br I would have broken down from the inside. br He looked at me like he new my whole life. br He looked right through me. br And said, if i ever needed a place to rest my head, br i could go to his church. br I never did. br But i did thank him for the ride. br I think he saved my life. br Maybe i didn't kiss that truck because br i knew he was coming down the road soon. br Maybe he was angel, maybe so. br I think if you took my life today, br no matter how afraid i would be, br or have been. br I would say that. br I have felt love. br I have felt pain.Really god? br What else is there? Love? Pain? br Its all the same? br I would have to question that even to myself. br Because pain feels allot worse than love. br Its the same feeling of butterflies in your stomach though. br I reckon the only difference is, one br you want to kiss a mack truck! br The other you thank a preacher for a ride. br And then hope for the best in life.br br Edward W.