i am in this moment br afraid yet with courage to say br i am ready to speak with words br they will take away br a great fear.......... it has br a new home and br i cannot stay for one lost minute br i have been seduced, br more than once frost bitten br a share of dream that br is meant to have us both in it. br br it has been many winters br few summers br and whose voice owns the illusion br i practiced so many years br do we practice these dry tears br br only we i understand br do we choose to be alone br and if it is the painful that die br i am afraid for you br and for myself i am afraid also br but willing like i have never br been willing to before br let go and let god or, br ..... let myself..... br give up control br because control has always been the greatest br illusion of all.