i thought of you in all the blood, br slipping in br the reality's, br br control is lost given to the shallow breaths, br the Juliettes marionetted on the edge of this, br n i thought i could fly, br br you under my wings a breath br of godliness, br br n the righteous pledging there lives to all this, br br shit uncovered n stinking up my spaces br br dark places i kinda like except, br br without you there br an unfurled flag br a nation unbound by what it should have, br br i find myself drowning, br br gasping for air, br its like the life i left behind, br n forgetting i remember your face, br br a ghost of better times, br br id like to live without but, br its a part of the machine, br br it grows n the clock ticks n tocks n i am alone here br br alone with these thoughts.................