I have coined subtle words, br Framed robust sentences br And idioms unique br In my private fantasy but br They miserably ditch me br At the fateful moment br When I wish to confide that br ‘I belong.’ br br Carefully pronounced words fizzle out br Under the feather-weight br Of nocturnal dreams br Nourished in the womb br Of a barren Autumn. br br Faint beams of a pestering hallucination br Giggle mischievously br When I don’t know br What is what? br br I have rehearsed in vain br Ridiculous postures br And carefully designed dialogues br In the privacy of my greenroom, br For I cannot look eye to eye br When most wanted.br br R.