Wish I could say what I mean - wish I could br express my feelings, wish I had a friend who br could understand, wish there were one whom br I could trust, who had the disposition and time br to listen until I managed to say everything br br Someone to help unravel the puzzle so I can br become reconciled and resigned to my fate, br to laugh at my shortcomings and tease me br for being bad; having lost the ability to talk br it is impossible to say anything – I find br br Oblique reference in other people’s words; br trusting consciousness goes on after this br physical existence; free from astrogenetic br limitation in a different realm where the br spirit is free to choose its destiny br br Without limitation by a million variables - my br current personality is a great drawback, a step br back in the progress of spiritual evolution; but br it will enrich awareness - though the price for br the experience gained… is painful… br br …in the extreme… br br (I know the fault is mine)br br Margaret Alice Secondbr br