Overjoyed? or Confused? br Desire for pleasure. For him. Am I happy with? br Or am I perturbed by worry of it not being real. br Weather it be realness of feelings or br realness of reality. Surly of course is wasn't a reverie I felt what I felt but the br question still remains... Is he true? br Or is he there because I stand alone, the only br one who would be waiting. Even after a month of uncertainty, and few months of br heartbroken certainty. br I am still here....In this....Invisible, hidden to others. But he br comes back I come out happy, yet also questioning. br br It has been few days since the moment of rejoice, of pleasure, of happy. And br still lasting. br I hope at the next Moment he will be easier, but be still similar. So I once again may br Taste the fire the lies behind his features. br Feel the heat that pulses through his whole body that warms my cool hands. br And yet I can also question, br Attempt seek what must be found, is he real for me as well as those others. br It will be a trick to try and seek the answer that lies in his mind as it is a pain to try br and see inside any man's mind as is the same for any man to see inside a woman's br mind's eye as well. So we shall see. br So I shall see, feel, touch. br Taste.... Know. br In the next br Moment.