there is such thing as br being lost as others see you br because you are not doing br what they expect you to do br i need not mention all those br passages or rituals like... br but i am more into this br self-discovery thing such br as doing what i really want to br do but those that do not destroy me br those that do not make me fall into br fear but into the comforts of my own br space, my own paradise, and br i guess i have found it, br something like just being myself br without the interference of other's br moral codes or br majority's etiquette br thus i wake up at night and sleep br the following morning br i write more than have to speak br and just stay inside rather than br have fun with what we deem as br friends or kin br br this way i am like a seed growing br in my own soil br moving at my own pace br and slowly unfolding as myself br and no other....br br RIC S.