When I need words most br The seem to drift away br My brain as their host br Doesn't know the right words to say br br A panic sets in me br And everything becomes overwhelming br My self-esteem starts to drop br It feels as if my head might pop br br It's scary unexpected br It like I'm infected br I feel as if I'm always being tested br I feel like I'm always being rejected br br Why can't I talk br Why can't I make that scared feeling stop br I barely ever leave home br I'm starting to wonder if I'll spend all my life alone br br When will this end br When will I start being okay againbr br Jessica Stubbsbr br