The darkness returns, the shadows surround me br Suddenly I forgot how to breathe br What's going on? br Why is this happening again? br Breathe in, breathe out br Choke back the sobs br Resist the urge to hide. br br Why am I crying? br My fingernails br Dig deep into my palms br Bringing blood br I cringe, wipe br My hands on my pants br And burst into tears. br br What's wrong with me? br My breathing is fast br My heart is beating loud br Tears stream down my face br So many emotions inside of me br Are now on the outside br Where they never should be. br br They should have stayed br Hidden, out of sight br I can handle this br I can-Can't I? br Hands shaking, br Head pounding br Body cold as ice. br br Confusion, hurt br Pain, depression br Once again it appears br To torture me once more br Nothing new but br Each time it hurts br More than the last..... br br Until the day br You come to me.