Are you proud of me? br The son you raised? br A father you should be, leaving me for days br A father who was there but so far away br The use of a substance that took you from me br br I just needed you here br but you couldn't stay br constantly choosing it over me br was I not the high that you need? br the home you left so empty and the sons that needed you dearly br are just empty memories that will soon fade br br Our lives you affected in so many ways br I'm sorry that I wasn't good enough for you to change br I tried getting through to you constantly counting down the days br until I could be a part of you again.