41st anniversary of a dark day in political and ethnic relations of the country. This is my personal experience of May 13th 1969. br br Approaching my 15th birthday, I was not to know what it was all about nor what its implications were, then. br br Now of course we all know. But what it really means to me now, is that May 13, 1969 represents a watershed in the national ethnic landscape -- to me it was when the Malays abandoned their 'tidak apa', easy-going, ineffectual character for a rude and aggressive one. br br On May 13, 1969, the Malays fell onto Mahathir's laps.