It's almost like you had it planned br It's like you smiled and shook my hand and said br "Hey, I'm about to screw you over, big time" br And what was I supposed to do? br I was stuck in between you and a hard place br We won't talk about the hard place br br But I don't blame you anymore br That's too much pain to store br It left me half dead br Inside my head br And boy, looking back I see br I'm not the girl I used to be br When I lost my mind br It saved my life br br It's how you wanted it to be br It's like you played a joke on me br And I lost a friend br In the end br And I think that I cried for days br But now that seems light years away br And I'm never going back br To who I was br br Cause I don't blame you anymore br That's too much pain to store br It left me half dead br Inside my head br And boy, looking back I see br I'm not the girl I used to be br When I lost my mind br It saved my life br br I think I cried for days br But now that seems light years away br And I'm never going back br To who I was br br Cause I don't blame you anymore br That's too much pain to store br It left me half dead br Inside my head br And boy, looking back I see br I'm not the girl I used to be br When I lost my mind br It saved my life br br That life seems like light years away br Light years away br And that life seems like light years away br Light years away