[UPLOADED HERE BECAUSE OF COPYRIGHT] this is a very late video but I was having trouble editing this video and I finally finished it! I hope you enjoy! I worked hard on it! br (I put some stuff from this year in there because I ran out of footage) br . br . br . br . br . br 2016 was a hard year but even though I struggled and lost a lot, it made me realize I need to get myself together. At the beginning of the year I was really unsociable (as I was just recovering from some other issues I had really bad depression and anxiety) but I saw that there was going to be a cosplay gathering in Little Tokyo and I decided to go. I went into the gathering thinking that people would come up and talk to me and hang out with me, little did I know I was the one who had to do the confronting. Luckily I had a friend there with me who helped me out a lot. After the gathering I had regretted not talking to more people. A few cons and gatherings later I made some more friends but I still couldn't help but feel left out. Seeing the same people over and over again at cosplay events but not being able to talk to them was so frustrating, but I didn't give up. a few months go by and I find this group called Shining Aqua. A SoCal dance group that was looking for members. I was too shy to post a dance on my personal Instagram so I made a secret one and put my audition on there. Some time passes and I get into the group! I was so happy that I was finally going to be able to talk to (and even dance with) the people whom I admired! And even have the privilege to call them my friends. The first time I met up with some of the members to record a dance they were all so kind. I fumbled and messed up a lot on the dance but I was so incredibly happy. After more and more events I got closer to each member. Even though sometimes I still feel left out I always think about how I was in the past and that's what keeps me going. Near the end of the year I was pretty beat but I found happiness in my hobbies, friends, and family. br . br . br . br I lost my grandma and cousin too, I was sad for a while but I know both of them would not want me to grieve for too long and to keep going. These losses hurt both sides of my family so much and it was hard to see them in such a state. I was not too close with my cousin as we didn't see each other often after I had grown up. Although I did spend a lot of time with him when I was little and it's still shocking and hurts that he is gone . I was quite close to my grandma and I still cannot believe she is gone. She was such an amazing and caring person (very funny too). I started learning Korean because I wanted to communicate with her better (I have not stopped learning). I wish I could have spent more time with her but i'm glad she isn't in anymore pain. br I love both of them so much but now I must move on and carry on with my life.