Beyoncé’s Miscarriages Pushedbr Her to Seek a “Deeper’ Purpose.br In a recent interview with ‘Elle,’br Beyoncé candidly spoke to fansbr about her past pregnancy losses andbr how they affected her outlook on life.br When asked if she was “disappointed” that she didn’t winbr more awards for ‘Lemonade,’ Beyoncé spoke about how herbr miscarriages taught her to “search for a deeper meaning.”.br I began to search for deeper meaning when lifebr began to teach me lessons I didn’t know I neededbr … I learned that all pain and loss is in fact a gift, Beyoncé, via ‘Elle’.br Her miscarriages specificallybr taught her about motherhood,br in terms of herself. .br Having miscarriages taught me thatbr I had to mother myself before I couldbr be a mother to someone else, Beyoncé, via ‘Elle’.br She then referenced Blue, her first child,br saying her birth ultimately caused herbr “quest for purpose” to become “deeper.”.br Rather than being numberbr one, Beyoncé now found herselfbr focused on creating a “legacy.”.br I died and was reborn in my relationship, andbr the quest for self became even stronger. It’sbr difficult for me to go backwards. Beingbr “number one” was no longer my priority. Mybr true win is creating art and a legacy that willbr live far beyond me.