written by Nabil Shaban br performed by Tina Leslie - 1990 br edited by Nabil Shaban - 2010 br br "If I decide" by Nabil Shaban br br If I decide to commit suicide br How shall I do it? ......With blade or with bleach? br Where shall I do it? .....In the glade or on beach? br Why shall I do it? .......Am I alien or a leech? br I’m closed up. No access. Me they can’t reach. br If I decide to commit suicide br When shall I do it? .....Before or after the laughter? br Time blows up. “Oh!” Max says. Me they can’t teach.